This is an article about Philando Castile, a 32-year-old man who, much like Alton Sterling was shot and killed by police. The difference between Castile’s death and Sterling is who was on hand to witness it; not that one was big and the other was skinny. Or that one was the neighborhood CD man and another was a cafeteria supervisor at a Montessori school.

Warning: The video of the aftermath of Castile’s shooting is graphic and you can view it here if you choose.

Castile was shot dead by a police officer in Falcon Heights, Minnesota after a routine traffic stop. His girlfriend, Diamond Reynolds captured video of the aftermath in which Castile, lying in a blood soaked white shirt is looking up towards the ceiling and Reynolds has to maintain more composure to tell the world what happened to her boyfriend. Reynolds has more composure and control of a situation than the officer who shot and killed Castile, who is still pointing his weapon at the dying man after shooting him four times.

The officer asked Castile to reach for his wallet to show identification. Castile did, according to Reynolds. “I told him not to reach for it! I told him to get his hand off it,” the officer contends in the video.

“You told him to get his ID, sir,” Reynolds told the officer. “He was just getting his license and registration.” The officer still shot him thinking it was anything other than a wallet. The officer still held his gun inside of a vehicle where a four-year-old girl was in the backseat.

We know the drill by now. The officer was already placed on paid administrative leave, the Governor of Minnesota has already released a statement, his family has spoken to the media and protests have already begun.

But we’re tired. Tired of writing these kind of stories and having to share information about the dead in this fashion. Because telling the world about Alton Sterling or Philando Castile or Sandra Bland or Eric Garner and so on and so forth hasn’t lead to anything. The same trolls appear on social media feeds essentially begging for this type of policing. The same trolls offer more questions rather than initial compassion. The same feeling of a no bill being passed, no officer charged, a special prosecutor citing a “lack of evidence” and so on and so forth. It’s beginning become more and more clear that we were designed to live with PTSD, where going to sleep watching death and waking up to watch it is part of the cycle.

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Brandon Caldwell is the founder & editor-in-chief of Day & A Dream. His work has appeared in VIBE, UPROXX, Complex, EBONY, the Village Voice, the Houston Press, Houston Style Magazine, DJBooth, The Sports Fans Journal, and more. Follow him on Twitter: @_brandoc